There have been a few things going on in my life with work and life decisions that I think are causing me to lose my cool. Making important decisions in life can be quite stressful. If you add onto that things that can get on your nerves, it can create quite an internal struggle. I have been praying that the Lord would give me patience with everything and that I would watch my tongue, but I have been failing miserably. Perhaps I need to be in the Word more often. Perhaps I need to pray. “Perhaps I need to” is not the right phrase. “I should” must be in it’s place. I know both of those are key to keeping me calm and causing me to have a more positive outlook on life, so I’m not sure why I don’t pursue them on a regular basis.

We were never promised that life would be easy. I am personally surrounded by people who do not know the Lord in my work environment and have taken it upon myself to be an example for them of Christ’s love. I know I’m not perfect and that I will make mistakes, but it has been happening more often recently. I have had a short temper concerning certain things and expect a gold star for the things I do to help another. I would put that in the category of self-service. That should never be what I’m pursuing. I know what I’m doing wrong and I kick myself for it. Yet, it continues.

I think it’s gotten to the point where I need to step back from the situation and look to the Lord instead of myself. He is the only One who can bring me through this. He is the only One who knows me inside and out. He is the only One who can help me fight Satan’s temptations, which is what these are. He is the only One who can help. God, I pray for Your strength to prevent me from serving myself. I need Your help to give me a positive outlook while facing my current struggles. Please guide me through this and I pray I can be a light that points others toward You. You have a plan for me and I pray I can be patient as I wait for Your guiding hand.
May 1 Corinthians 13 be my motto.

Love
1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.